Will I ever be the mother of the bride?

Will I ever be the mother of the bride?

It's so funny...my daughter is only 10....why would I even think about that now? 

Why...because I don't know if my child will ever able to live on her own let alone get married.  As we sat here watching "say yes to the dress", I got so sad as she was playing dress up and pretending to find her gown like they do in the show. It suddenly made me realize that this may never actually happen in real life.  

It is so sad to think that all of those things you dream about while being pregnant and take for granted that they are actually going to happen, may not.  

Will there be a man who will love her for who she is? 

Will she be able to handle being a wife and possibly a mother? 

Will she able to even maintain a home on her own without us? 

Most parents don't have to think about this...especially at 10 yrs old. 

Will I ever get that chance to go to a bridal shop and see the excitment in her eyes when she finds that perfect dress?

Will my husband ever be able to have that moment where he gets to walk her down the isle and have that dance with his daughter?

It is not so much that I worry about the future but sometimes reality hits you like a ton of bricks.  Each time you are accepting of what you are up against and the challenges your child faces...BAM  a thought comes into your head that you never thought of before that makes you remember that your family is different...very different.  It really is so sad sometimes.  I am envious of other moms of 10 yr olds...and the funny thing is they have no idea.  They have no idea how many things that they take for granted.  I mean, yes, there is no guarentee that any child will get married and have kids, however, for a special need parent, the percentage is MUCH less.  Sometimes my heart breaks just thinking about it.  I try not to let it get to me...but sometimes it just does.

I guess we will just have to wait and see what life has in store for our family. In the meantime, I will just have to keep wondering and enjoy each minute of our pretend "Say Yes to the Dress"

    

Until Next Time....

Jenn